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I don't spell confusion with a K.
I spell it B-R-I-T-T-N-E-Y.
It seems to be that I am confused.
"What are you confused about?" you ask me.
I simply reply with one word.
LIFE
Life is confusing me.
My friends
My family
My boyfriend
My relationships
My teachers
Myself.
Nothing seems right anymore.
When did life turn into a blurr without a moments notice of warning.
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[22 Jan 2006|06:25pm] |
holy gentle jebus.
i love him.
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[20 Jan 2006|09:46pm] |
why is sarah dyer my best friend?
violentallure: ohh jesus, panic @eldiscoo
violentallure: that face will turn anyboy on
violentallure: let me tell you
THATS WHY
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| in 3 hours. it will have been 6 months |
[13 Jan 2006|09:27pm] |
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schwabis4lovers: who is this
schwabis4lovers: i hear you are beautiful
xNew Wave Gospel: really do you?
xNew Wave Gospel: i hear you're pretty wonderful.
schwabis4lovers: and that you are the most perfict girl on the earth
xNew Wave Gospel: my name is brittney.
xNew Wave Gospel: i hear you're the most amazing boy on earth
schwabis4lovers: well im am tim
schwabis4lovers: do i know you
xNew Wave Gospel: maybe.
xNew Wave Gospel: i think i know you but im not sure.
schwabis4lovers: i think i know you too
xNew Wave Gospel: yeah?
schwabis4lovers: mhmm
schwabis4lovers: i think you are my love
xNew Wave Gospel: i think you might be the boy of my dreams
xNew Wave Gospel: but i know you're my love
schwabis4lovers: really
xNew Wave Gospel: yes
schwabis4lovers: i love you
xNew Wave Gospel: i love you too
schwabis4lovers: for ever and always
xNew Wave Gospel: always and forever
happy anniversary my love
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[06 Jan 2006|09:08pm] |
i got the part i wanted.
fuck yes
ima rock love lace
HARD
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[05 Jan 2006|09:34pm] |
call backs for the play were today
i got called back for 3. the maximum amount
im spazzing.
i find out tomarrow what i got
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| me=survey whore |
[27 Dec 2005|04:38pm] |
Put an 'x' in all the things you've done this year!
LOVE
() stayed single
() got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
() made-out for the first time
(x) made-out in a car
(x) kissed in the snow
() kissed in the rain
(x) fell in love
() fell in love with a fool
() had your heart broken
() broke someone else's heart
(x) had a stalker
(x) had a good relationship with someone
(x) told someone how you felt about them
(x) questioned your sexual orientation
() came out of the closet (if ur gay)
() gotten pregnant
() gotten someone else pregnant
() had an abortion
(x) gotten married
() had a divorce
() had a gay marriage
(x) kissed someone of the same sex
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
() lost your true love forever
() lost faith in love
() kissed under miseltoe
WORK/SCHOOL
()got a promotion
() got a pay raise
() changed jobs
() lost your job
(x) quit your job
() dated a co-worker/peer
() dated your boss
() dated your boss' daughter/son
() got fired from your job
() got straight A's
(x) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one teacher you really hated
(x) found the subject you love
() failed a class
() cut class
(x)skipped school
() got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
(x) gave the teachers a reason to teach
() proved yourself an idiot
(x) embaressed yourself in front of the class
() fell in love with a teacher
(x-there were 6 of them and belmont said i was) got lead in the school play
(x) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
OTHER
(x) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) double-dipped
() skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
() went to camp
(x) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
()laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) flirted shamelessly
() visited a foreign country
(x) visted a foreign state
() cooked a disasterous meal
(x) lost something important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
(x) went on a diet
() tried to gain weight
(x) dyed your hair
(x) came close to losing your life
() someone close to you died
(x) made an accomplishment that shocked everyone
(x) realized your trustworthy freinds
(x) told a secret that would ruin your life if revealed
() threw a wild party
() went to a wild party
() drank alchohol
() drank alchohol underage
() did (a) drug(s)
() gotten drunk
() got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
() saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
() saw your favorite band/artist live
() saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone
(x) Enjoyed this year overall
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| best relationship of 05 survey |
[27 Dec 2005|01:23pm] |
Who Is Your King/Queen of '05: Timothy Alan Schwab
Boy or Girl: Well, from what i've seen. boy =p
Are They Cute: Yes. Very
How Old Is He/She: 18. Three years my senior
How Much Of '05 Have You Been Together: 5 months and 17 days ::as of dec. 31st::
Did You Meet Their Parents: yes, i love his mom
When Did You Meet Your King/Queen: technically myspace. but in person like a week later
How Did They Affect You: He's lifealtering. He's changed me forever, shown who I am &&who I can be. He loves me for who I am &&showed me that it's okay to let myself love. I love him.
Do You Plan To See Them In '06: Yes. AMAP
What Was The Best Thing They Did In '05: Spent time with me. changed my life. all that good stuff
What Would '05 Have Been Like Without Them: pretty damn horrible. I don't even wanna think about it
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| 2005 in review |
[22 Dec 2005|11:55am] |
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Lost it.
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
eh. a little bit. i lost about 5 pounds my goal was 20
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
toni will in april
4. Did anyone close to you die?
not this year
5. What countries did you visit?
AMERICA
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
a better relationship with my mother
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 14th, the day timothy and i became official
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Surviving 3 breathing incidents. the most i've had in a 4 month time frame
9. What was your biggest failure?
my grades.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
bad ankle, and breathing incidents
11. What was the best thing you bought?
a haircut
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
SARAH
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
my mother
14. Where did most of your money go?
clothes, christmas presents
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
4th of july
16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
Timothy
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. happier or sadder? MUCH Happier
ii. thinner or fatter? a little thinner
iii. richer or poorer? Much much poorer.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
lost weight, more homework
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
procrastinating
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
in florida with my family
21. What LJ users did you meet for the first time this year?
haven't MET any
22. Did you fall in love in 2005
i did i did
23. How many one-night stands?
none
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Nip/Tuck
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
supKATYJOHNSON
26. What was the best book you read?
The Da Vinci Code
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
PANIC! at the disco
28. What did you want and get?
sewing machine
29. What did you want and not get?
20 pounds thinner
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Phantom of the Opera or RENT
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i was 15. i went to a cubs game with the ex boyfriend from hades
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
my parents accepting the timbrittney relationship
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
shit
34. What kept you sane?
elsbeth, tim, sarah
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
always have and always will SEBASTIAN BACH
37. Who did you miss?
myself
38. Who was the best new person you met?
eilert.ashley.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
procrastination is like masturbation. fun while you're doin it but in the end you realized you just fucked yourself
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
and nothing else matters
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[21 Dec 2005|12:59pm] |
i miss people with funny colored hair that went to nsync concerts withme
i miss maroon minivans that trap you inside if you don't know how it works
i miss lesbians who get hit with pretty sticks. SEVERAL TIMES
i miss boys who say zieg heil as hello
i miss sports fans who have a guilty pleasure for jessie mccartney
i miss my massage therapy customers
i miss kids who use freshman and need new speakers in their car
i miss girls who hug baloons on their birthday
i miss a girl who looks beautiful no matter what and does my hair perfectly
i miss a girl who gives me names in french and laughs when people sing EEEEEMMMMOOOOOOlatus
i miss people who also share the love of aging rockstars
i miss a real O G who runs away from smoke
i miss girls who make chemistry teachers need alone time
i miss a boy who only calls me brittneybombshell and nothing else
i miss sir studley
i miss kids who look like my twin when we straighten his hair and put makeup on him
i miss kids who want to die at their lockers POR FAVOR
i miss poets who go to london
i miss boys who love their sex & gefelte's
i miss cheerleaders whose last names are my swearwords
i miss dancers who love helen keller
i miss girls who caw at seagulls in the lunchroom
i miss pirate girls
i miss girls who scream HOLY SEX
i miss fellow beauty queens
i miss a girl who gives me high fives
i miss girls i never talk to but know that i love them dearly. we go to church games in the summer w/ sarah
i miss my daughter
i miss filipino myspace whores
i miss my long lost twin
i miss trekkies
i miss girls with snakebites
i miss bestfriend turned boyfriend turned ex turned bestfriend turned hitler turned best friend
i miss boys who do beautiful makeup
i miss girls who fall in love with communists
i miss seeing double
i miss my sister. my other half
i miss the love of my life.
i miss home
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[20 Dec 2005|06:56pm] |
florida blows
i miss you all
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[14 Dec 2005|08:26pm] |
its been 5 months now.
5 amazing months.
i love timothy alan schwab
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| muh weekend. |
[11 Dec 2005|06:38pm] |
saturday: i had speech in the morning. was very fun? then i went to beths house for some sweet algebra 2 help. that sucked. and we were supposed to be home by 2 but drewbert hit his dads car so he picked us up late. that lame fayce. then i had some issues but i don't wanna talk about it its nothing now. but i had a breathing spell...AGAIN...and it was really bad and lots o crying and such so bethy called eilert and he came over and acted like my big brother and they got me to breathe and i was all good again. so i took a nap to regulate my breathing so i didn't die. then me, beth, & drew watched saved! which is pretty much one of my top 5 movies. and we loved it even more when we noticed the jewgirl cassandra's car had GEFELTE on it :) we made popcorn. and i didn't burn it. and then we gave drew scene hair and it looked amazing. im mad we didn't take pictures. but beth is gonna teach him how to do it so he can be supercool. then i made them go home and i did pretty much nothing. i cleaned til i called tim and he always makes everything so much better. i love him more than MY LIFE itself. and he's my oxygen. literally.
sunday: nothing. NADA ZILTCH. how pathetic. but i did get the new gingerbread book called shrimp. yeah its pretty much amazing. i can't stop reading it.
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[06 Dec 2005|10:10pm] |
holy shit.
so tim calls me from the hellogoodbye show so that i can hear them play call and return.
so that was cute.
and then he calls me like 10 minutes later and he was asking me if i got the song and i was like yes. i did. and i was all excited. and then to top it all off. while he's on the phone he's like shit its jesse.
so while im on the phone he walks up to him and starts talking to him and he's like jesse man that was amazing.
and then he's like me and my girlfriend are going to see you in wisconsin. and tims like im on the phone with her.
and jesse grabs the phone & is like SEE YOU IN WISCONSIN!
yeah. my night sucked. and that made everything WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY BETTER
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[05 Dec 2005|08:56pm] |
so today was amazing.at around 4:20 i was finna get a ride home with kayla, but kayla and i have this thing with prying open lockers. and she used her car key annnnnnnnnnnnd it broke. so we laughed alot cause she had a spare at home and were like EILERT! you love us and want to give us a ride home. so we go to his car and....he left his headlights on. it was most definatley dead. so we had to get danny pontillo out from inside and had to jump the car. it was hillarious.
ahhh. good times
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[30 Nov 2005|09:47pm] |
i feel guilty.
all my friends are miserable about relationships.
either they got their heartbroken.
broke their heart.
or have no one to break or to break them.
and im happy.
very very very happy.
and i feel ackward.
because i rant on being happy with my love life.
while they rant about how much theirs sucks.
so if you are happy with yours.
please tell me so im not so alone.
kthnxbye.
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[29 Nov 2005|10:45pm] |
so today was quite terrible if i may say so myself. almost unbareable
1. i was in the lecture hall periods 1-7
2. my mother was 20 mins late picking me up. in the cold
3. its 10:47 and im typing my sisters homework for her because my dad made me
4. my dad used the comp. for an hour for NO GOD DAMN REASON knowing i had homework
5. my baton shoes smell like a hockey bag.
6. My mom hates me because im not perfect.
7. I've gained weight. again.
8. I've yet to buy mandapants a birthday present
9. I burned my forehead with the curling iron
10. my room is trashed.
&once again its my fault. i've been procrastinating. i never do anything til the last minute. cause im stressed. the only things i don't put off are reading and memorizing scripts. but im a procrastinator none the less. one day it'll bite me in the ass. maybe one day i'll learn.
in the words of laura berzin
" procrasination is like masturbation. its fun while you do it. until the end when you realized you just fucked yourself"
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